I have had one of those weeks and it is only Tuesday. My daughters are having some problems with a former friend, and while I would like to say it typical teenage stuff it has become a little more serious than that, and Graham and I are in the middle of it with the school, and well, it is so frustrating. I was sitting here tonight feeling a little like “Lord why is this happening?”  And frankly, not really in a very nice tone,  I was saying this. It was more like me whining, telling God how we don’t need this right now. Then I went on the computer to read my favorite blog and wow did the Lord put me in my place. First I went to Transplantingme my favorite place to go.  She is a friend who has moved to Thailand with her whole family, her recent blog is about Poverty: it is blog action day for Compassion International and she is one of their bloggers. She writes about how she has felt poor in the past, maybe because she couldn’t afford to go to Starbucks with a friend, but she knows that is not poverty. Thank you Lord, for I have a roof over my head and my house is warm tonight and my kids bellies are full.

Then I went over to Bring the Rain. I LOVE this blog what a amazing story she has and what a inspiration she is! Her blog was about how October 15th is National Remembrance Day for pregnancy and infant loss . The lady who writes this blog lost her daughter hours after she was born.  In this blog entry she invites her readers who have lost children to share there loss.  Over 300 ladies responded!  I sat and read them and was overwhelmed by all the loss. I have four healthy kids (Praise God) and I can’t imagine that loss. Thank you Lord for my children!

So my lessons so wonderfully taught to me tonight:

1. Return to being Thankful for all I have.

2. Spend less time asking God “Why is this happening?”

3. I have no idea how good I have it!

I encourage you to read these ladies blogs: both are amazing women who have done amazing things that take great strength. I hope to grow up to be like them.

Here is to very wise and strong women all over the world, some who sit tonight with kids with empty stomachs wondering how they will find food for their families tomorrow and to some women who sit in a empty nursery still grieving what could have been. I pray the Lord will be close to you tonight like He was to me.

Last night I got to see someone I haven’t seen in about 2 years. It was great to see her, I recognized her right off the bat. She had the same laugh, and loved being with people. She is different in some ways, you can tell she has been through some stuff. It seems as if she had grown, there is a confidence that was lost but is slowly coming back. It was good to see her I am so glad she is back.

That person is me, and I am finding my way out.  Last night Graham and I went to the Pikes Peak Baptist association annual meeting, I know your  thinking that doesn’t sound fun, but it actually was. There were pastors from all over the Pikes Peak area, some of which we knew. One of the pastors we started ministry with many years ago was there with his wife. Others we were just meeting, but what I realized half way through the night was, hey – I am back! I felt like myself again, I am not sure when or how or why but, I just felt more like me then I have felt in 2 years. I was laughing, and not that made up hahaha kind but really laughing, I was enjoying meeting people, and it was a great evening of pastors encouraging each other while finding out what has been going on in each others churches. I also got to listen to a fellow pastors wife who was struggling with some stuff I had been through in the last 2 years. I love when God allows you to use your pain to help someone else going through the same thing. I think it is very healing.

It was a great night, it is good to see signs of the old Trish coming back.  Hopefully she will be wiser and much more dependent on God for her happiness. Last night was a small step in the right direction.

Here is to finding your self again, it is good to be back!